"I found some space",  was the project that started January 2019, this year. 

Related to the big project "I need some space", this was the first time I rented an own fully equipped room.  Having my first own little theatre after years of acting and writing things down, gave me the beautiful posibility to work and experimente freely with my own written stories and to performe the first scenes of the big project on my own. 

 "The awakening" is the beginning of this little´s projects play.  It is about personal envolving and finally breaking free.  After long terms of just hiding, not really knowing who he/she* could really be, this person in the awakening finally finds release. 

A person is awakening, in a small box, warm and dark. Loving sounds of gentle waters and a deep feeling of trust surrounds that little something, who never saw its form.  It takes a while for growing, then it begins to hear a call. 
Out of the box, into the new world, scared but open a person begins to come out of the dark, growing out of that box life, that gave comfort, but got too tight..  Beginning  to grow bigger and bigger,the person finally stands..slowly and very careful, the person starts looking around..

Waking in that box was not negative at all. It was the safest and warmest, and closest place to grow. A beautifully grounding base, just like a glow, of that will grow a tiny flame into a whole..

What once was such a home tho, grew later in too small, too tight and something longed for some freedom up to hold the head in new fresh winds and there must be something more, not sure yet how to get there, but somehow it works for sure....

It took a little while, but the person made it out of the box. Confused and still a little overwhelmed he/she*´s greeting the world. Freshly borned eyes watching a whole new open world. Until old trusted forces begin to come back on her.. 

Slowly, but pretty surely, they start to move the person, what starts as a strengh of leading,

becomes to get very though, and what once did help and gave strengh is now stopping the own growing process. what once was good and helpful, begins to be pressure now, 

and so the second releasment begins, to flee the steering force..

"..out of that box i´m pushed in,

get rid of all these stripes,

that seem to pull and force me,

to walk against my life.. "

           " ,,and then you are on your own. no one is around.. it´s what you´ve always wanted, 

              but is it that what counts?...who´s left for me in the end, when no one is around,

will I become the lonely, when I walk on my own...?"

For though the three releasements will liberate the whole; the third one took its action, to spread and see it all.  The inner feel was right; there is so much to see! ..a never seen potential, in me, that´s what I feel.. I wish I had a voice now, to sing let it show, for though they might could join all, as I followed my call...